I think I need a new laptop
I bought a new laptop at the beginning of the year, but I bought an Asus eeePC, which while quite fun and awesome to play with and just jump on the net whenever I feel like it. It’s light, and just easy to take anywhere. The issue is that I think I need something that will actually be able to do some work – like blogging, and other documentation. The 10 inch screen of my E, is just too small for doing actual work. As such I have concluded that the E is a fun play computer, great for travelling, but not so great for actually work. (Its speed, graphics and cpu capacities are another factor.)
So that leads to my next step, finding a new laptop for work, work, and getting rid of the PC computer that is sitting in the lounge room. I’ll have to do some research 
Hope
I’ve been thinking on hope for some time. Especially since Pastor Rod was diagnosed with cancer some months ago. While the illness has not been the best (is it ever?) – it has been a true blessing and ultimately a witness to see Rod’s hope. It surpassed the hope one might have in things that don’t last – like health, family, money etc.
Rod, and his wife Liz, recently decided to resign from the current church in light of his illness and the continuing growth of the church. It is with this (and his illness) in mind, that (I feel) he has begun a sermon series on HOPE. It’s been a good look into the history of Biblical hope, not just the hope given to Christians through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, but throughout the Old Testament of the Bible as well.
Faith, Hope and Love – and the greatest of these is love. -1 Corinthians 13
The first week we looked at God’s promises to Abraham AKA Abram (Genesis 12). That he would give him a land, descendants and would bless him; and yesterday we looked at the hope of Joseph in Genesis 42-46 focusing on chapter 45, where Joseph reveals himself to his brothers. Though he had been sold to slave traders by his brothers, falsely accused and thrown into prison – and away from his family and home for some 20 years – he still had hope. Would you? Would I? Hope isn’t found in our current circumstances, in the life we have here, the things we own or even the friends or family we have. None of that lasts – hope of the eternal kind can only come from something or someone beyond the laws of our current world – in someone that surpasses time and decay – in God.
Owen in the flesh
So I had to write a little something about my Bro, he’s an awesome bloke, currently residing in Colorado, USA, studying at University for a semester before coming back to the land of OZ. He’s having an awesome time over there, having plenty of adventures, and writing about them too (read them at meric and ozzy-o).
Its been pretty nice, to read about the adventures he is having (Thanks to WordPress) – escapades in Yellowstone National Park, and conquering the breweries around town are only two. Through all this I can see that he is partaking in the challenge of life, the search of both who we are and why we are, and all those questions that come up that we need to answer personally. Its through this I can see Owen in the flesh. A man, who I hope, will always seek to find the answers, and take life’s adventures as they come.
New Blog
For the last month or so I’ve been thinking about a new blog that I wanted to set up. What should it be about? What would I write? What would it be called? What Should it look like? Is there a domain name available? Where will I host? These were some of thee thoughts going through my head over some weeks, but the ultimate question that keep coming back was – will I succeed?
Hard work and patience are not virtues that come easily to me, and so, as with many of these adventures into blogging that I have taken, I run the risk of losing sight of the goal and becoming discouraged by failures – large or small.
Don’t worry, I really do want to succeed at this, but I’m making decisions in what Dr Scott Peck calls ‘the agony of not knowing’. I realise that there isn’t particularly any potential for a personal blog. I have way too many interests that I would want to talk about – and reading through the experience of Darren Rowse at ProBlogger has helped me confirm this. Truly, who wants to read the self-gratuitous ramblings of millions of people (myself included)?
So, it was with these things in mind that I set out to discover the what, where, when and how of a new blog for me. A run through a number of scenarios to begin with – like writing quite formal book reviews, and all that would entail (reading books I’m not necessarily interested in 
) to writing a number of posts on topics/items of interest that have cropped up while reading a book & when finished the book writing an overall synopsis/review. It sounded like a winner.
I thought I’d hit the jackpot on the niche I wanted to enter, but about a name? Book Reviews? Thoughts on Books? Thoughts? Musing? I thought I’d hit jackpot again on Musing – only to find that Musing.com is taken, doh, of course. On further investigation, I found that bookmuse.com is also taken for a site that reviews books, no less! How discouraging, with none of the URLs I liked available, I was back a square one. It felt like this was the end of the adventure on this, and My Exploration – also felt like it was at the end of its adventure. But I have persisted, and I will let you in on the blog when it is launched, which I hope is soon – I’m sure it will be soon.
Feeling lost
I typed ‘feeling lost’ into Google search and it came back with 232 million results – just a few. In a quick glance of the first page, I see “Feeling lost? Get more sleep!”. I think that is great advance and definitely something I need more of at the moment, but I’m not quite sure it will help me with my ‘feeling lost’ issue.
To put it all simply (and broadly), I’m feeling the complexities of life. I don’t know about you but two years ago, life seemed to be a lot simpler, but now I feel like I am thinking too much. Don’t get me wrong I think it is fantastic to be thinking so much, because it is through such thinking that I am learning. Maybe it is that I am finally learning responsibility in work, in finance, in home and in my relationships – ultimately, I’m learning responsibility for myself. It seems to me that this is all attributing to my ‘lost’ feeling.
I’ll have to sleep on it and see what else I can determine from this feeling?
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